Graduation was a mess for me. I did not enjoy that day at all, in fact, most of it ended in tears thanks to a certain fatty. I left my purse in his car and he told me that he could take me home, and he couldn't take me home ... What the hell? So I stranded without a ride, then he finally was able to get me home. There is a lot behind this story that I do not feel like divulging on this blog only because I am just too lazy to type it out and think about it again. Maybe things will heal up with time.

On the college business, I was able to sign up for housing already and my official roomie (assuming things will go well) is Stephanie. Yeah, we are going to fill up our dorm with shrooms.

However, I am still adamant about trying to get into UC Berkeley and UCLA, still. Though there is one thing troubling me, for some odd reason, my parents hateBerkeley. They say that the school is just weird and that UCLA is more famous and superior. I always thought that it was Berkeley that was famous ... not UCLA, but academically, in my opinion, they are one par with each other. I just like Berkeley slightly more because of its nice, cool weather, as opposed to the heat of SoCal. Plus, I can get around the Bay Area so much easier without a car! However, if you were to ask me how I feel ... the school I still truly and dearly want to go to was University of Chicago. Should I try and reapply for that school?

I cannot explain why I love that school, I just do. The atmosphere and the quirkiness is so me! Its as strange and odd as Berkeley, but they aren't snobs about it. However, there are a few concerns that I have. Mainly tuition. First off, I will lose my CalGrant because it is not an instate school (no crap!) and to top that, I will get charged even more! Argh. Nonetheless, its such a petty reason for denying myself a great school.

I think its bullshit when people say a degree is a degree no matter where you get it. Well, no shit it is, but its not just the piece of paper that is important and so pivotal to college, its the essence of who you are and who you become. For some people, maybe the place that will develop them the most is a CSU, but for me, I think that place would either have to be somewhere far away or something great! I don't know, maybe I am getting a little too head of myself. So what are my final summer plans?

• Review Math - a one year hiatus is far too much for a person who will be using math for the next few years. To be honest with you, my mathematics was never too strong in the first place. I will probably have to review all the way back into Pre-Calculus.
  
• Complete Scholarships - if I still want to go to University of Chicago, I really have to do these suckers and try to win them. Even if I don't go to the school of my dreams, these will be useful nonetheless.
  
• Go to a Career Center - Yes, I am going to a career center and I will take those personal tests. It sounds pretty lame, but my aunt insists of me doing so. She said that had she done it her freshman year of college, she would have saved so much time. I guess I'll take on her offer and try it out for myself and see what weird, wacky result I'll get. I hope I won't get English high school teacher. [/cough]
  
• Complete transfer application Yeah, I still have not given up! I recently got word back from UCLA on why they rejected me, thanks to Muckenfuss. Apparently, I did not have enough extra-curriculars my freshman year and also they wanted to see all of my college grades. What the hell? Well, I think I will have an easier time trying to get in as a transfer.
  
• Work on Night Shift Noble If this shit doesn't get done by the end of this summer, I'll never get any time to because one college hits in, I'll be so damn busy I might not even be online nearly as often as I am now. Sigh.
  
• Read In the past four years at MCHS, I've been so bogged down with paperwork, I never had a chance to actually explore and read the things that I wanted to. I think I suffered on multiple aspects as a result. My spirit as a "creative writer" died (I don't think I can revive it now), I lost vocabulary and eloquence, and I missed out on some great ideas! Well, this is the time to make up for it.
  
• Get a second job Working at the Professional Development Center is just not enough. I am going to try and work at the computer lab in the afternoon.
  
• Volunteer at school I might become a reader for the Anthropology teachers. Though I know for sure I am going to be helping Miss Solari out in Budd105 for a week or so.
  


That's the only thing I can think of right now, there are tons and tons more to do, but I'll get around to it some day.

So I completed my last final around 9:04 AM today. As I left the class, I didn't really think much. Even when I was in Locke Lounge for an hour .... for the first time in months. Then when I sat in work, I just realized how "innate" work as become for me. If I am not doing something or working, I just go insane. I no longer know how to realize and kick back sometimes. I get so irritated when I am not doing something. That makes me wonder how things are going to play out for me in the summer. Luckily I took some classes and I am also going to work to kill some time. I have a lot of plans, though. Plans and things to do for my own benefit, for once. Anyone interested? Well, lookie here.


- Review Math I want to review some of the mathematic skills I have lost over the year of ... mathlessness. I am going to use the DemiDec goods that I stole from that one school to assist me in my epic quest.

- Practice Art If there is anything that I neglected for the past few years, it would be art. Sure, I got a lot of practice with graphic arts and programs, but I really miss ol' pen and paper.

- Continue making my game Yeah, I need to finish the game. I need a writer or something ... sigh.

- Get more money Yeah.